All Things Subject to Change*
Analysis paralysis will kill more dreams and lead to a lifetime of regrets than actually choosing a path and following it.
As an overly obsessed creative existing in perpetual world of amazing possibilities, life can be extremely complicated or a bit overwhelming at times.
Not that there aren't millions of other fucked up people from overstimulation and endless choices, but having unlimited options is a real struggle for me.
There are too many things I want to do and experience but it would take several lifetimes to achieve them all. Unfortunately no matter how much I beg, cry, or pray getting more time isn't gonna happen. One day I'll be gone.
Knowing this reality is mental torture.
So I've spent years trying to figure things out, always hoping to make the right choices, because life is short and I don't want to fuck it up.
Perhaps this is why I've been stuck in the "All Things Subject to Change" mentality for the past two decades. It's easier to keep the options open than to choose a path and stick with it. It's safer to write dozens of plans than to act on them.
But not making any choice also has terrible and damning consequences!
When I just think about the possibilities I don't create them. Nothing gets done and all those great ideas just die inside of me. No one will ever be able to experience what could have been. This, in my opinion, is worse than choosing the wrong path because it leads to regrets. And regrets are detrimental to the soul.
My purpose going forward is to stop thinking and start doing.
An example is this website. Instead of trying to decide what the focus should be or what my potential audience thinks, I'm gonna write about whatever the hell I want. If people or search engines like it, great. If not, at least I published something.
The same goes for other creative ventures I've talked about for 30 years, like designing my own line of t-shirts and other clothing. People might not give a shit about my art but at least I followed my dream. Isn't that better than settling for nothing? I think so.
I guess all this rambling is just a reminder that none of us are getting any younger and time is ticking away. We can waste it thinking about all the possibilities or we can make some cool shit happen.
Eternally it doesn't matter if the path was right or wrong. What matters was that we chose it and walked it.
'Nuff said.